Stepping in the dark…

Another step along the journey: Healing Touch. Some generous and gentle folk from the Church in which I was working in Lacombe re part of a group that prays together and then offers Healing Touch to any who need it and ask for it. Healing Touch is similar to Reiki, but not the same. After prayer, practitioners quietly move their hands over your body, close enough so the hat of their hands is felt. Sometimes you are touched, many times not. The whole experience is meditative, calming and promotes healing of a spiritual nature. One comes out of such a time altered in some way. And the folks come again and again, as volunteers, to share their own spiritual calmness with you.

I’ve had three such visits recently, and I look forward to more. What actually happens I can’t exactly say, but in the relationships that develop and the offering of care that is given, a powerful ministry happens.

But not all “next steps” are so pleasurable. Having discovered a source of calming music to send me to sleep via the Internet and my iPad, I find sleep comes quicker. But not always does it remain quiet. More dreams are released, and some of them come from the distant past. For example, I awake some time after midnight last night with the sense that a man, the father of one of my grandsons, whoa man who had once threatened to bean me with a table leg, was either in the house or trying to get. I spent many anxious minutes trying to reason with myself that this was silly. Nevertheless, I got up and set the door alarm!

This morning when I woke, I felt as though I had been, or was, in the middle of a drinking bout: drunk. I couldn’t focus to set a simple device, and I simply staggered back to bed for another hour or more of sleep.

Was that an effect of medication? Or of my brain injury? Did the sleep disturbance have anything to do with it? When new things happen to you after a traumatic incident, all behavior tends to be interpreted in the light of that event. So more rational meanings are left to the side. I’m still looking around for those more rational meanings. I’ll keep you posted.