Another step…or paranoid plots

Another step? Or just another day with the same steps over and over. In any case, a fresh approach to tackling the annoying issues of sleeps and lack of focus. Last night was disastrous; no sleep until 3, groggy all morning, ads well as feeling poor, with a sore head…

I plotted the day. Lots of long walks, taken without speed, just to condition the wobbly legs and actually get somewhere. Long sociable time at Tim’s with people familiar with physical distress, so held the whole thing seriously. Then a long walk home. This assured me of enough exercise to make me tired. I did append some time on my back before preparing dinner.

My evening strategy was simple: no overly dramatic TV or reading. The reading was a failure in the evening; attention span has shortened to minutes, so I can’t keep focus on a story or article for long. Big change: I ingest one whole Xanax pill (as prescribed), hoping this will make me more soporific. In a way it does, Certainly, by 9 PM I am already yawning toward bed, having had no panic attacks the whole day, even when sitting at coffee with four people. Before ten I am laid out and listening to a reasonable talk show (no one was raising my hackles with paeans of praise for our every-hair-in-place boy scout PM). Out like a light.

I awoke just now at 2 AM for perfectly natural reasons…see how delicately put… and will soon be in bed and asleep again till morning. I have pledged to lie in bed until Gomeschie time, where up-getting is necessary as I am totally put off by Mr. ‘I’m-heading-for-the-corner-office-of the- CBC-just-you-wait-and see.’

The day tomorrow is planned, on my head at least to be quiet and focused, as MD ordered. One anomaly to puzzle through. The insurance company insists I should have notified them of my incident the day after it happened, rather than four weeks later, when my wits returned. If I am not allowed to fly, I may be penalized for that failure – ie, given less money! If, on the other hand, I AM allowed to fly with MD clearance, and any ‘incidents’ occur, I will not be able to claim insurance because it was a prior condition about which they were aware! Does this sound like s poker game with your opponent having access to your cards from the start, and making up the rules as the game unfolds! Why insure at all, when you are old, since by then, almost every condition is “pre-existing”? Think on that as you plan your vacation!