Block Party on our street last evening. Big
portable barbecue, portable fire pit in the centre of the street, kids
everywhere, tons of good food…and fattening food as well. Many folks from two
streets gathered and became better acquainted with one another. I spent some
time ‘evangelizing’ two guys into the world of Scots whiskey. Perhaps we’ll
share a snifter at Christmas time, when there will be another event.
The weather wasn’t fine, but it didn’t rain,
and the chill was kept at bay by the potable fire-pit, which blazed away all
evening, giving off warmth and smoke. A few of us sucked up the smoke, and were
transported back to youthful days around campfires, roasting potatoes and corn
filched from someone’s garden.
The food, of course, was abundant and calorie
laden, apart from the table full of salads that were to be had. I quite enjoyed
the event for a while. I talked with a couple of not-so-near neighbours whom I
hadn’t met before, as well the young guys I tempted into thinking about Scots
whiskey.
After about an hour and half, I was stiff and
ready to walk the four houses to our door. I volunteered to take our camp chairs
home, assuming that Beatrix would be along shortly. Of course, in that hope I
was mistaken. It was after dusk had turned into near-darkness, another hour at
least, before she came in, brimming with neighbourhood news and gossip.
Apparently, quite a few folks had hung around the fire and visited after I
left.
I was surprised, because I had come in
feeling tired and a bit overwhelmed by all the socializing. The whole thing reminded
me that I have still some distance to go to be ready for such sustained, and
for me, intense, interaction. Had I tried to remain with Beatrix, I would have
been exhausted, and I’m sure would have drawn further and further into myself
for “protection.”
I’m not so fragile and anxious as I was in
the days after the stroke when a few minutes with a handful of people had me scrambling
for isolation. But I can take the presence of a large number of strangers for
only a short time, and then my emotional energy gives out, and I need solitude,
and more silence. Still an area of needed recovery for me. Part of the way home,
but not there yet.
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