This has been a week of turbulent connections, and disturbed emotions, and anxiety and uncertainty. At work and in my personal life I have had to face consequences and observe people in significant pain, all of it tracked back to me, at least in part.
Not the kind of week you ray for, but probably the kind of week your soul needs now and then. Certainly my soul deserved such a week. You act, however responsibly, however carefully, and sometimes the pieces fall into place, and sometimes they don't. They just fall…
I am finding that afterward, it is important to simply wait, quietly, for the smoke and dust to clear, so that perhaps you can see the situation a bit more clearly than previously. For sure you have more information about the Other feels and responds, and that gives you the grist to ruminate and ponder next steps.
I am part-way through the 'pondering' part, and that has allowed me to see the whole field a bit more in the way that the Other has seen it. I have gained some understanding. That helps to lower my anxiety, and begin to balance out "blame," most of which felt like it had landed on me. (It reminds me of a cartoon by Ashleigh Brilliant. A man stands under a cone or funnel. Large stones are tumbling down the funnel. The caption reads, "Everything is falling into place…on me.") However, I am realizing that responsibility for a situation is often shared. There are always at least two perspectives on a situation, and in the clearing atmosphere, the perceived partial responsibility of the other makes it possible to draw a deep breath and realize that your initial guilt is overmuch, and requires balancing out. As you relax into that awareness, the thought processes slow down and reflection is possible. A basis for future conversation is beginning to be established. And the world hasn't ended after all.
In the meantime, I'm glad of a short time of oasis, of peace and of time to 'replay the tapes' and learn from the past. Thank God there is the possibility of balance in my life…for now.
Not the kind of week you ray for, but probably the kind of week your soul needs now and then. Certainly my soul deserved such a week. You act, however responsibly, however carefully, and sometimes the pieces fall into place, and sometimes they don't. They just fall…
I am finding that afterward, it is important to simply wait, quietly, for the smoke and dust to clear, so that perhaps you can see the situation a bit more clearly than previously. For sure you have more information about the Other feels and responds, and that gives you the grist to ruminate and ponder next steps.
I am part-way through the 'pondering' part, and that has allowed me to see the whole field a bit more in the way that the Other has seen it. I have gained some understanding. That helps to lower my anxiety, and begin to balance out "blame," most of which felt like it had landed on me. (It reminds me of a cartoon by Ashleigh Brilliant. A man stands under a cone or funnel. Large stones are tumbling down the funnel. The caption reads, "Everything is falling into place…on me.") However, I am realizing that responsibility for a situation is often shared. There are always at least two perspectives on a situation, and in the clearing atmosphere, the perceived partial responsibility of the other makes it possible to draw a deep breath and realize that your initial guilt is overmuch, and requires balancing out. As you relax into that awareness, the thought processes slow down and reflection is possible. A basis for future conversation is beginning to be established. And the world hasn't ended after all.
In the meantime, I'm glad of a short time of oasis, of peace and of time to 'replay the tapes' and learn from the past. Thank God there is the possibility of balance in my life…for now.
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